its thanksgiving week.. gonna eat some goooood food. whats your favorite part about thanksgiving? mine is stuffing/dressing... and skrewing around outside in the cold with my family (ie... casting rods in the street, throwing the football, building a fire, you get the idea)

this is why i was up all night worrying about my friend...

I'm afraid of the quiet: No
I have cut myself: Um no
I'm afraid of the dark: no
I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night: no
I am homosexual: ha
I've run away from home: no
I listen to political music: isnt all music political? except for that rap shiv... shake your laffy taffy?? seriously... ghey.
I collect comic books: no
I shut others out when I'm sad: yes
I open up to others easily: eh... as friends, yes... otherwise.. i suck at that
I watch the news: john stewart and the colbert report... espn news too.
I own over 5 rap CDs: only good ones from about 5 years ago and before
I own something from Hot Topic: no... wait a second... yes. i bought a pair of shoe laces there about 7 years ago. they are in some shoes at my dads.
I love Disney movies: christmas ones. not the animated ones.
I am a sucker for eyes: i love em
I kill bugs: all of them
I curse regularly: every day
I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation: no
I like Spam: no
I bake well: yes
I have worn pajamas to class: yes. seventh and ninth grade
I have a job: yes
I love Martha Stewart: yes
I am in love with someone/like someone: yes.. i like
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS: absolutely not
I am self-conscious: we all are in our own ways
I like to laugh: zero fun sir
I have tried alcohol: just once
I have tried a cigarette: yes
I have cough drops when I'm not sick: no.
I have smoked weed: i sell it
Swallowing pills make you gag: no
I have scars: yes
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room: i told you i kill them.
I am really ticklish: yes
I love chocolate: its ok
I bite my nails: damn... you got me.
Seen a shooting star: yes
Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose: no
Swore at your parents: yes
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour: on my fourth right now
Bitten someone: yes
Gotten the chicken pox: yes
Crashed into a car: senior year a car hit me and push me slightly into the bumper of a truck in front of me.
Ridden in a taxi: yes
Had feelings for someone who didn't like you back: who has not?
Had a crush on a teacher/coach: yea
Been On A Plane: yes
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show: nope
Thrown up in a bar: classy.... but no
Eaten Sushi: only because tiff made me
Walked purposefully into traffic with your eyes closed: hold on... i cant type.. and walk with this laptop in my hands at the same time... ok. yes. now i have.
I tried to kill myself: does the above mentioned apply to this question? no? ok, then... no.

1. What is your middle name? O'neal
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? i am pretty sure this answer will most likely always be pink.. or red
3. What are you listening to right now? People building a house next door and love actually
4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 26
5. What was the last thing you ate? homemade quesadilla
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? i dunno
7. How is the weather? we wished for cold and finally got it.. for about a night. its very sunny and cool outside.
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My sister on her lunch break to see if everything was ok.. i am babysitting her kids (ie the two puppies)
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? not sure.. its different with each person. usually the face. haha. pretty general
10. Favorite type of food? all food.
11. Do you drink? sometimes
12. Do you smoke? no
13. Ever get so drunk you don’t remember what you did? absolutely not
14. Hair color? answer is also pink
15. Eye color? depends on what i am wearing.. they change. right now they are green
16. Do you wear contacts? no
17. Favorite Holiday? how about the entire span of oct 31st to jan 1st
18. Favorite Month? december or may
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? yeah
20. What was the last movie you watched?love actually. twice this week already and watching it as we speak
21. Favorite Day of the Year? thanksgiving, christmas, or new years... when everything shuts down and you dont have anything to do but hangout with your family and go to the movies at night
22. Are u too shy to ask someone out? yeah.. always. thats why i am where i am today
23. Do you wish someone would ask you out? i am not sure
24. hugs or kisses? hugs
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? hmm.. choc candy but vanilla ice cream
26. Do you want your friends to respond? i dont care. i am just bored and for some reason everyone decided to post these surveys in consecutive days... so i am replying.
27. Who is most likely to respond? rachael
28. Who is least likely to respond? tom
29. What books are you reading? still trying to get a hold of perks of beinga wallflower
30. Piercings? ears
31. Favorite Movie? ummm lets stick with the theme... love actually. i really dig free willy too
32. Favorite baseball Team? dont care. wanted the stros to break the streak though
33.What were you doing before this?? playing with the pups.. then they passed out
34. Any pets? none of my own.. want to get a puppy when i get my place in a month or so
35. Aim? that isnt a question... you are electric? do i use it? yeah
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? throw all the cholesterol on there you can
37. Dogs or cats? dogs
38. Favorite Flower? tulips
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to? ummm... i guess. 41.Have you ever loved someone? loved someone? of course.. been in love? no
42. Who would you like to see right now??chels, ruby, tiff, meg, dani, holly, erin, steph, and tara
43. Are you still friends with your ex??
44. Have you ever fired a gun? many a time
45. Do you like to travel by plane? i love airports... i am serious. and i love flying too.
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?Right
47. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be?? the ones mentioned in 42... i havent see them in a while.
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 4
49. Are you missing someone?42 and 47... want to ask me this again?
50. Do you have a Tattoo? represent

the following are in no particular order... and might i say, i am very chipper right now with holiday cheer. its gonna be soooooo much fun this christmas... so much fun.

10. cold weather.. even more so in the night time
9. apple cider
8. love actually
7. christmas shopping
6. thanksgiving day... doing nothing and eating.. much like christmas
5. seeing my family
4. cooking... watch out folks.. i like to cook some goooooood shiiiv
3. cutting down a christmas tree
2. scarves
1. strip clubs

WHAT ARE YOU READING? starting today.. "the perks of being a wallflower"
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME? payday
FAVORITE MAGAZINE? Travel or Nat'l Geographic
FAVORITE SOUND? thunderstorms, walking on fresh snow in the silence of night, and a cracking fire
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? feeling helpless
FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING? my pillow smells nice and its warm
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? used to answer right away, dont know when the change happened, but now i dont have my phone with me all the time for the purpose of not feeling the need to answer.. trying to get better at that.
FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? james for a girl, and chase (for a girl or boy, pref a girl) after my brother
WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? money and bmw's
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? yeah
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? no
WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? nissan... and i love him and i miss him
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? soco lime with diet coke
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? of course
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? i would be satisfied doing a lot of things... a chef at a nice rest. with a fun staff. owner of my own business. advertiser. soap opera star. you know, the usual.
EVER BEEN IN LOVE? nope.
IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? either way there is still the same amount of liquid in the glass... this analogy sucks. what if you were racing? then half empty would be a good thing... and if there were a leak and the cup was catching it so it didnt stain the carpet, then half full would be a bad thing. so take my advice... always chug, and in any other situation... who gives a fuck?
DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? of course. and i dont look at the keys either
WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? nothing
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 1
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? College basketball... holy schnikeys... march will be here soon!!! and all of you are joining in on a bet... winner takes all.
SAY AT LEAST ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? she rocks rollerskates. but really, she always believes, and never doubts
IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE? seeing as how my dream is to buy the only house i ever lived in, if that never happened.. and i am thinking my mom wouldnt like it (wierd memories for her i guess) then i would still build in austin... prob south central. 4-5 reps for life.
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? a good pair of sexy underwear. ha! with a tight wifebeater... lacey's or ruby's sweatpants
WHICH DO YOU LIKE MORE BEACH, MOUNTAINS, OR CITY? does anyone else feel that reading caps is like someone yelling questions at you? a city in the mountains or on the beach.. beach. def beach. west coast has it all.
WHICH DO YOU PREFER TECHNOLOGY OR ART? Art
WHICH DO YOU PREFER COMEDY OR HORROR? comedy. i like to feel good. no sense in feeling disturbed... i dont go near that stuff.. you may think "cullen, its just a movie", but some sick f-er thought about that story, and you have to wonder, things like that dont just pop in your head... you have to be sick or influenced by something sick.
FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? a great smile, and defined jaw and cheek bones.
WHICH DO YOU PREFER SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? hamburger, even though i eat them about once a month.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DAY? everyday pretty much rocks.. but i really like it when the world shuts down for thanksgiving and christmas... i think my favorite thing to do is drive around at night with friends and family and look at lights with no one else on the streets
WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? Rachael
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON? all the really old christmas ones they play for the holiday season
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? last monday
WHAT WOULD YOUR FUNERAL SONG BE? love is all you need.. see "love actually"
WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR WEDDING SONG? there was a beethoven song that they used for a saturn commercial a few years ago... they were incredible... anyhow, its a beautiful song.
WHAT COLOR UNDIES ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? pink
FAVORITE DRINKING GAME? flip cup
FAVORITE CARD GAME? hold 'em, war, egyptian rat skrew, and speed
WHICH DO YOU LIKE SUNSET OR SUNRISE? Sunrise
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS COOKED? in an omelet?
FAVORITE TIME OF DAY? night time
THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? a blank one to copy someone elses.
WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? anywhere
WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? this question is ghey... hands
WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? Mind
WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? 9
DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE AFTER LIFE? absolutely.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Winter

"i wish i were my cat".... its a famous phrase. one coined by a great woman. and i have traveled this vast state spreading its infinate uses at infinate oppurtunites. and last night, i finally sat down to write a song about it. rachael ate animal crackers... jumped in the pool... then amanda and i did the same. it was cold. and jack was stuck at the bottom of the pool... but we saved him. we drank pickle juice staight from the jar... and watched rach rollerskate in the jack in the box parking lot. people asked us for weed... we told em pickle juice would do the trick.

10. dunk on alisha
9. get healthy (ie rid of this cold)
8. find a new place
7. visit my grandmother
6. go fishing
5. business
4. see the people i love in denton... whoopty whoop
3. exhale outside, and actually see my breath
2. win a scratch off lottery ticket
1. feel accomplished when i do all of these things

i think i am ready to die.... with the lack of sleep over the weekend, walking that 5k (on no sleep) and being worried about stuff... my immune system is shot. every single muscle in my body is in pain, my eyes even physically hurt when i squint from the sun, and my throat is swollen with god knows what. oh yeah, and i am at work. top of the mornin to ya..

i wish i weren't so quaddam flighty. my mom and i had our last fight about this.. and ever since then, things have been wonderful. she told me she is sorry that she didnt have the same patience that she had with my brother and my sister... but i admit, i am much more flakey than the two of them combined. but there have been a lot of changes. lately, i have been doing everything that i tell my mother that i am going to do... and with out reserve. i dont have to think about it... i just do it. i told her i want to move back from denton because i think a lot of my lack of "gumption" (my mother's lack of better words) stems from being there. i feel like i dont do anything... and here, i feel like i do what i say i am, because i want to do it. for example, she doesn't understand my entreprenuer mind... we all think alike in that we are always coming up with new ideas. i have told her about a few of them, and i even have business plans written out for them... but she thinks they were all crazy ideas that i threw out the window for the next great idea... when in fact, i just didnt have the funds or resources to follow through. i havent told her about the online company that leticia and i are ACTUALLY forming. i get so excited just to think about it, because here i am, with a solid business opportunity, and there is nothing stopping me. the other ideas have been fun, and maybe in the future they could still be a reality, but for right now, i have people actually telling me for the first time in my life, that they believe in it. two people, so far, so much that they are willing to invest. "I SAID GODDDDAAMMNN!!! mutha fucka ISSS fine!" so guys, sorry if i have been flakey with you lately.. but austin is taking care of that one day at a time. and stay tuned for internet company details... aka website, myspace, and designs...


this has been capt c tellin you... im keepin it real.

real quick, because my boss is about to walk in... in about t minus 3 minutes.... well, i love the internet. a few days, i mentioned that everyone has been slackin on the blogs... and i deserved the comment mel left.. i need to spice things up. well i will be off of work in a few minutes, so i will give you something to enjoy. peace up, a down.